Stone stone stone again.

Uber fun last night. Went for suphon potluck birthday party. It's damn fun and finally meet up with them cause its like long time never stone together le. All were telling me that they didnt see me for a long time lol a bit guilty here cause ever since i've work i seldom go out with them le. We played WWE cards and its like damn epic and classic everyone bring their deck and we played together haha. Ton for the night, do lots of stupid things especially when theres shao, he never fail to make you laugh until stomach pain. Lets hope we stone again soon.

能约出来的人都约光
能吃得下的早已吃光
很用力谈笑 比哭还绝
望 怎么挨得到 打烊

我以为痛苦可以分散
于是我忙到不能再忙
忙到忘记了 洗掉你所有
短讯 一字一巴打在我脸上

思念太猖狂 一个冷不防
一想起你
忙碌的生活变得空荡荡
对心事说谎 把你想到多么的不堪
伟大的你还想我怎样

我以为工作能够疗伤
甚至恨不得病倒再算
没力气遐想 谁知瘫痪在
床上 越发渴望你就在身旁

思念太猖狂 一个冷不防
一想起你
忙碌的生活变得空荡荡
对心事说谎 把你想到多么的不堪
伟大的你还想我怎样

你也太猖狂 一个冷不防
睡到一半
才觉醒疗伤先要哭一场
对世界说谎 只把自己哄骗得更惨
想得到释放只有投降

再一次美丽的梦变成空了废墟
再一次让爱都叹息
我真蠢 蠢到了底
自己都很难相信
又被我搞砸了又搞砸了
又伤了她的心
她流下一颗泪滴
我後悔到不能呼吸

Woots woots i'm so happy and high now yea man. Well was working just now, food runner, super uber shag luh run here run there non-stop still must remember all the number then in the end super pissed off. Until the order start to slow down. Then after finish washing the trolley message my friend and asked about the result of the fight, well i did mention the fight on the earlier post. And he won haha, of course he won, hes super strong. My friend say he fight super exciting, his push kick damn strong ARRRGHHH damn work, i missed out such a good fight, my new friend some more. His going back on sunday :( damn sad. I would missed him though. Have been planning on going to Thailand for a one month training maybe can go find him also but not so soon ba haha. Ciaos, really very happy for him haha although it was quite clear that he would win. Oh oh and also

Happy Birthday to mommyRena, wish you have a good one and good luck for your attachment hahahaha.

Ps i super high now dont know why also.

Yepp the guy beside me is the guy whom i have been talking about, he would be fighting today against Malaysia, lets wish him all the best and win the fight. Too bad i cant go down and watch him fight, damn wasted. Anyway his name is Manat, his 21 this year, his body is damn power right? A bit sad that his going back to Thailand on Sunday and i wont see him anymore =( damn sad. Know more and more people in the gym already, has been thinking if i can, maybe next holiday also, i will go to Thailand and train, something like a camp like that but a camp that last for 1 month haha.

Anyway yesterday clubbing plan failed, damn sian,went home nua le then sleep. Haiz damn turn off by all these last minute fail or cancel thinggy.

Its been great these few days going to the gym. Got sort of new instructor, a temporary one, but hes like only 19 or 21 age range. From Thailand of course, hes help to for a match/competition against malaysia held at our gym. Hes damn friendly and kind luh, not forgetting to mention that his body, fuyo~ power pack. Hes not very big size smaller damn me but his body is damn lean, all you can see is pure muscle haha. Training with him is really fun, as he does 1 on 1 padding work with us, learn a lot more.

Have a ride again in honda s2000 again. I'm like so motivated to really start and plan my first step now. Heard from him that another guy, now quite close already, also owned 3 car, GT-R, evo 10 and dont know another one is what. Power luh but is because his family is rich, heard that he also got open something like car factory or servicing things with his friends.

I should start taking my step now and do a serious planning and thinking for my future now.

My tears run down like razorblades
And no, I'm not the one to blame
It's you ' or is it me?
And all the words we never say
Come out and now we're all ashamed
And there's no sense in playing games
When you've done all you can do

But now it's over, it's over, why is it over?
We had the chance to make it
Now it's over, it's over, it can't be over
I wish that I could take it back
But it's over

I lose myself in all these fights
I lose my sense of wrong and right
I cry, I cry
It's shaking from the pain that's in my head
I just wanna crawl into my bed
And throw away the life I led
But I won't let it die, but I won't let it die

But now it's over, it's over, why is it over?
We had the chance to make it
Now it's over, it's over, it can't be over
I wish that I could take it back

I'm falling apart, I'm falling apart
Don't say this won't last forever
You're breaking my heart, you're breaking my heart
Don't tell me that we will never be together
We could be, over and over
We could be, forever

Please teach me how to continue to live on.
I seems to have lost the purpose of living on.
How i wish i can start my life all over again.
There are so many things I have regretted.
Can i give up this life?

A Rotten Heart

Went to a Thai Buddhist temple in tanah merah, bedok walk with ah soon and his friend. Walk around that area in a super hot weather was torturous but the houses, semi-d houses amazed me. Its really peaceful and the design of the house are very nice. I would love to live there if i ever had a chance. Walk around then got lost, decided to take a cab but turn out to be that the temple are just across the road in front of us ROFL. The temple looks really nice, first time visit a Thai Temple. Lazy to elaborate the rest, a bit disappointed as i did not achieve what i wanted to do, also regret that i didnt asked for advice or get blessings.

Anyway just came back from jogging and was really feeling great now, i felt that i have really calmed down a lot and think of the positive stuff like changing myself. Jogged from house down to punggol park and 5 rounds in punggol park which made it 6km++ and it took me total 40mins swee swee on the dot to finish it.




I'm truly repentant on what i did yesterday. I dont meant to shout back or quarrel back with you yea, but maybe i was just feeling a bit f'ked up. A lot of things in my mind and i cant figured out or get rid of it. Yes it was my fault, i should have just listened and keep quiet. I'm wanting to change myself now for i know i have been getting on the wrong track lately and falling too deep. But please give me some time to change myself, i'm not super human and i've got a lots of things to do.