Mixed and confused.

Its exactly one month since i last updated. Sort of forgot that i still have a blog again.
Anyway life is still the same err wait i mean life is getting worst. What else can i say? Its either school or work, or school and work. Trying my best to cope with everything but got no mood to study again, how? How i wish attachment faster come.

Ok a random though.feeling. Dont know why but these few days i just fucking feel like crying. Emotions have been all the way down. Always ended up going home feeling down or sad. I really want to cry all my hearts out.

Often people have kind of best friend/"pen pal" or what i will called "sms pal" that will always talk to them or able to share their hearts out with, listening to one another hearts/rant or just to talk to, lepak with. I cant seem to find one. Always see people sms, holding on to their phone or phone ringing.But that is like quite a rare scene to see me in. Sometimes days just passed by where my phone didnt even shout out to me once.

Yea i'm jealous. But well what can i do? Who ask i'm born like this, i'm no good in socializing i'm fugly, i lack of self-confident, always trying to accept the fact that i'm like this.

Well FMFL and good nite world. Time for me to be living in my dreams and wake up to jog tomorrow