Doubt, Lost.

I'm sick and tired of all these once again. On the edge of breaking down again. Guessed that maybe i was just too tired from the non stop working and training and a lot of shits. Really hard to hold it back as tears just kept on rushing to the rim of the eyes.

I really hate it when people start to doubt me when i know i can do it, i hate people to assume thats the way i am, how i feel or anything. If that is not proven with any evidence please dont go around spreading, you might just wanna do yourself a favor of not messing with me.

I really really hate and despise a lot on people who talk big, assumed that they are always right, not only that but also spread those assumption around. I also hate acting or behaving not like my usual self or against my feelings, i often avoid it and i feel very uncomfortable with it. Therefore i tend to be very obvious showing that im acting since i dont like to go against my feelings.

What happened to me, do your really know? Even if i said it, would your really understand how is it for me without really going through all those. It may seem like it's not a big deal but believe me, try it. What was happening inside me or what am i thinking, do your know? I have been fixing up myself and all those shits inside me. Forcing me to accept what is it, forcing this into my mind and heart, let it be a lesson learnt, let it go, suck it up, life goes on.

Yea life goes on......