Celebrated Ah kon birthday yesterday at bliss, at first was still okay but in the end a lot of things happened. I'm scared, first time seeing such situation i'm lost on what to do. It changed my perception once again on this world, this society.

Seriously got no mood for studies these few days. Whats wrong with me? I've lost control of myself, i keep doing things which i regret once again =[ How can i have the self discipline back again? Where can i find my motivation once again? Arrghh. Maybe i shouldnt have expected too much or too highly of myself. Also I need to change my habit of thinking too much. Its been making my life miserable but i cant help to think. FML