Saturday, April 9, 2011

Stray

Fuck, i think i have lost track of what im suppose to do, what i really want. Doubting and questioning myself, i want to do it but i dont know, all of these frustration keep coming up. FUCK FUCK FUCK. Lost on words, 心中有好多无奈跟烦恼都不知道要怎么发泄出来。Always using a smile or laughter to get by, dont know and unwilling to show express out how i truly feel, cause i dont really want to make my problem other's people problem.

Monday, April 4, 2011

Doubt, Lost.

I'm sick and tired of all these once again. On the edge of breaking down again. Guessed that maybe i was just too tired from the non stop working and training and a lot of shits. Really hard to hold it back as tears just kept on rushing to the rim of the eyes.

I really hate it when people start to doubt me when i know i can do it, i hate people to assume thats the way i am, how i feel or anything. If that is not proven with any evidence please dont go around spreading, you might just wanna do yourself a favor of not messing with me.

I really really hate and despise a lot on people who talk big, assumed that they are always right, not only that but also spread those assumption around. I also hate acting or behaving not like my usual self or against my feelings, i often avoid it and i feel very uncomfortable with it. Therefore i tend to be very obvious showing that im acting since i dont like to go against my feelings.

What happened to me, do your really know? Even if i said it, would your really understand how is it for me without really going through all those. It may seem like it's not a big deal but believe me, try it. What was happening inside me or what am i thinking, do your know? I have been fixing up myself and all those shits inside me. Forcing me to accept what is it, forcing this into my mind and heart, let it be a lesson learnt, let it go, suck it up, life goes on.

Yea life goes on......