Second last Day

Its the second last day for the year 2010 and I'm still feeling rather mixed and confused now. Okay guess i really got no life to share about in my blog. Still i've decided to write out my feelings here. At least nobody would visit my blog and read all the boring emo or ranting post.

On the third last day of 2010, while riding for work, i saw my friends/brothers/buddies playing soccer which was directly below/behind my house, our usual soccer place. Normally they would asked me if i free or not to play with them, but not that day. Its not the first time, i saw them playing without even notify me or ask me. Yes i know, i have been rejecting or turn down their offer to slack with them, go out with them, stoning, playing soccer and all the crazy shits that we would do together.

Ever since i started working, i've been neglecting my friends. I'm really sorry for that. Even like for today, my frens from poly, all the gaobins, they organized outing at punngol like for the first time, and because i forgot when is my day off, i missed out the chance. They had a lot of fun. What fun can i have now, what joy can i have.

I'm really really sorry.

I'm already starting to sort out my feelings, thoughts, ambition and all those shits that is in my life or going to be my life. So just give me 2 more days, a brand new year a brand new me.

Just let me process all my feelings for 2 more days and hope i can heal and repair them.

P.S I enjoy having friends, who doesnt, i take every friendship or any relationship very serious. I have a trust i put in every friends i made. I know who i can be really good friends with or not. Misused my trust for you and you dont expect me to treat you well and as a friends. For I treasure every single friendship and memories we shared.